This is a retrospective account/interpretation of the last 12 years’ worth of tripping on psychotropic drugs, roughly every 6 months to 1 year. You who might relate will know that to say it all in just a few words is to over-simplify. As I can muster them, these are simply the basest “conclusions”(interpretations) I came to after each successive occasion. I acknowledge that while some of it is far-out and right-on, some of it is just… well… you know…. stupid. I’m surprised that, to my mind anyway, they get more surreal and strange as I “advanced” on… I suppose I anticipated more clarity and seriousness — instead I’ve just gotten sillier (LOL).
(includes cannabis, c.psilocybe, DMT 5meo, DMT, and MDMA)
First Cannabis “trip” in 2000; I was 19: I was wrong all along about pretty much everything, especially about “drugs”.
First Mushroom trip, 2000.a: Life is not simply “this” or “that”, it is infinite creative play, a “novelty conserving” (TM;) waveform—So I must simply be present and straightforward—this is the only way to ride.
Mushrooms, 2000.b: Some so-called “food” should not be eaten. Do not simply trust what someone else is selling. I have to try to understand it myself. I am what I consume.
Mushrooms, 2001: Expectations kill. Normally, I’m too busy trying to be a ________ (read: “blank”) person, and that is how I am not myself, and most often why I get confused and frustrated. I do not have presence-of-mind because I am pre-occupied with coming across as “X”, rather than simply being myself.
Mushrooms 2001 2.a: What is is? Is is what is is. Is is is. Is “defies definition”.
Mushrooms 2001 2.b: This body is temporary. Life as I know it is ending all the time—to everything there is a season, no “thing” lasts forever…it all goes to the Eternal Return. Returning is serenity.. Nothing is ever truly born. Nothing ever truly dies. This is Eternal Bliss.
Mushrooms 2002.a: (a reiteration) BEING/Creation/Existence—is all amazing, and I AM that Being, since the beginning—“the Eye with which I see God is the Eye with which God sees me” - I AM that which IS—always have been, always will be.
Mushrooms 2002.b: There is only God. Also, there is no God.
Mushrooms 2002.c: The psychedelic state is the origin of art and religious experience; the precursor to civilization
DMT 2002: “Heaven” so-called is real.There are layers upon layers of extra-“dimensions” that we cannot normally access—and they are populated with trans- and extra-dimensional beings. At least a few of them are apparently involved in my progress and well-being, and at least one of them, a female, is watching over me—also, she either smokes cigarettes, or was pretending to just to confound me and make me laugh.
Mushrooms 2003.a: Try not to have a comment for everything. Words are stupid, language can be a prison. Sometimes you just need to sit, be quiet, and stay still. Listen to the Giant Quiet. Marvel. “Wow” a lot. Wonder. But for God’s sake, shhhhhhhhh…….
Mushrooms 2003.b: I’m looking at Now now. Everything that is happening now is happening Now. There IS, always “was”, and always “will be” only Now. It is always Now. THIS is eternity. The past and future don’t exist—figments of the Mind’s Eye.
Mushrooms 2003.c: Each and every living thing in these dimensions is an incarnation of the same phenomenon of space-time energy-matter and consciousness that I am. We ARE actually All One—no kidding. I am myself experiencing myself in a hundred quadrillion ways.
DMT 2007: Trans-dimensional beings are real, and they are the beings our ancestors used to call “angels” and “gods”, and what today people call “aliens”—and they literally live everywhere and plants are their avatars.
DMT 2007 2: I AM worthy. I am not marginal or insignificant. “They” have a seat set for me when my time in these dimensions are up. There is nothing to fear.
Mushrooms 2008: There is an Eternal Mother, who’s milk I drink… Who holds me in her arms… Who cries for me. Who gives me everything I need.
Mushrooms 2010.a: “Animals”—all the creatures—also dream at night.
Mushrooms 2010.b: If one can survive the night then they are rich indeed!
Mushrooms 2010.c: The mushroom is indifferent to my career path. (I asked what I should do with my life, it said “What the fuck do I care?”)
Mushrooms 2011: Humans CAN telecommunicate in different ways if they use a proper neurotransmitter. We humans are capable of a million times more than we currently realize.
MDMA 2012.a: The more I “focus” my attention on the world, the less meaningful the things in it become; the fewer things I focus on, the more meaningful those things are. If I focus on just one thing, it is the most meaningful thing in the world. But if I am focused on everything, then nothing has any meaning. Sometimes it is important to “de-focus”, step back, and love.
MDMA 2012.b: The Cosmos is always already infinite—too much to handle. Chaos is everywhere. Chaos is inevitable, but Life carries on in new and novel ways. Focus on just a few “things” and love them a lot!

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